Last Words .

let me go.
just let me fly away.
they'll never know,
i just cant bear to stay.
floating above all the clouds,
i see you,
you look happy now.
and in plain view,
you flash her a smile.
this was all i wanted.
why did you care so much?
did you not want to be haunted,
to admit you need a crutch?
admit maybe you're hollow,
nothing real ever was.
too much for you to swallow,
as the lines, they turned to fuzz?
well i'm gone now,
and will be forever more...
as i look down,
as i see you close the door.
just answer me this:
what were you waiting for?
i died that very minute.
you knew that very day.
and still you tried to spin it,
it was you who ran away.
and as you killed my spirit,
as the light seeped from my eyes,
i knew you had to hear it:
"nothing true ever dies."

Don't Let Go .

I still sleep on the right side of the bed,
I know you liked the left.
And when night falls,
I remember those calls,
And I convince myself you’re running late,
Working at a job I know you hate.
But you do it for me,
And for now, that’s how it has to be.
This house was once filled with laughter-
Overflowing with “happily ever afters.”
Now, the silence pierces my ears.
You have manifested my worst fears.
I wake, and make us both coffee…
Get the paper-I grab you a copy.
And when I’m laying in bed at nght,
I still talk to you-
Wondering if you hear me-but I know you do.
Because I feel you here,
And when I’m scared, I still pull you near.
It’s too bad that they don’t see,
You’re a part of me.
They don’t feel you like I do,
Telling me to start anew.
But, to me, you’re more alive than ever,
And I know our souls will never sever.

nothing left to give .

I miss you.
You’re here, but you’re not.
I need you,
I don’t care what I thought.
Why can’t it stay the same?
You’re not who you used to be.
Do you even know my name?
Another fallout unforeseen.
And to me, you’re a drug
Give a little, I want more.
A wet finger in the electrical plug-
Pain I’m begging for.
Make me miserable,
Because without your misery, I don’t live.
Take it all,
I have nothing left to give.

drag it out.

footsteps.
silence.
whispers.
violence.
get it over with.
it'd just be cruel to drag it out.
this life is just a myth.
nothing left to talk about.
and don't ask me why,
don't pretend you never knew,
that you were my sky-
so pure, so plain, so true.
all the pictures that you painted-
everything that was,
is now so vague and just so tainted-
thrown away...just because.
so get it over with.
i know you'll drag it out
make me beg, make me writhe,
until i scream, and shout.
and i suppose it's me who grants that power,
me who gives in,
me who cowers,
but i will say i was driven.
you've got that string around my finger,
it reminds me constantly.
and when you leave, my thoughts just linger
till you come back to me.
its not right and its not fair,
the way you play your pieces.
pretending that you care,
and then the caring ceases.
so go ahead and drag it out,
i like the pain, its worth it.
something you wouldn't know about,
and that's why you're so perfect.

done.

just let me say what i need to say.
i wont waste your day,
and we'll be on our way.
tell me how you really feel,
maybe we can make a deal.
and baby, since we're being real,
it hurts.
cause as i give, you take and take.
with every word i break and break.
i cant.
cant handle knowing we are done,
and here i thought that i had won,
it seems to me that you're the only one.
but if you cant see, i understand,
its not my place to take your hand,
and i wont lie, its more than i can stand.
so go.
live your life, i had my chance.
at least i know i took my stance.
i'm done.

Here, Tonight .

close the door, its broken now.
don't ask why, don't ask how.
but know that i am with you-here, tonight.
happiness is just a phase,
and when it stops, we'll go our ways
remember that i'll miss you-here, tonight.
my grasp released, i'll let you go.
with millions of other things i don't know,
but can't you please just hold me-here, tonight?
and when the gold sun rises,
there will be no more suprises.
there is no more need to scold me-here, tonight.
'cause when you wake, i'll be gone.
eventually, we'll move on.
but here we'll always be-
there'll be you and there'll be me.
and memory will hold us-here, tonight.

Perfect .

What a perfect picture,
Light gleams of f the glass fixture.
And for a split second in time,
It doesn’t feel like such a crime.
The smallest teardrop stains my dress.
All the sudden I confess.
I tell you what I’m feeling,
My head spinning round and reeling.
I tell you and I run,
In fear that life will come undone.
And when I finally stop, I see
You’ve come after me.
I wish I could keep that smile-
Just stay there for a while.
But it’s time to move along, to build
Till every space and void is filled.
Who should go, and what should stay?
Doesn’t always work that way.
So, you see, it’s not worth choosing.
Either way, you end up losing.